Demon Detox is No Joke

Healing from SRA, Offering Hope to Survivors

“They’re trying to take me out”— the phrase rings clearly in my mind as I’m on a walk earlier this year. I feel their steely, sterile, oppressive presence trying to squeeze the life out of me, just as it did when they abused me directly. It’s clear to me that I need to be aggressive in targeting this parasitic energy on a deep, physical level.

When I say “they” in this case, I mean them:

(Read my previous article for the list of my abusers.)

I’ve gone through a variety of phases since I began to uncover SRA/MK Ultra last year. There was the period of being completely undone by visceral flashbacks, programming bubbling up, and vicious panic attacks, and then came the phase of beginning to see and feel specific abusers. Panic attacks were beginning to subside, but I was facing a great deal of demonic interference. I feel called to share some of the ways that it manifested so that anyone else experiencing this on their healing journey feels less crazy, basically. Part of SRA involves having bonds made with demons/sometimes actual possession. And victims are also taking on the energy of their Satanic abusers. As I’ve found, the detox process is incredibly intense, but also completely navigable, with Jesus.

Something I experienced early on in this detox process was waking up with different American patriotic songs in my head, even though I hadn’t heard them in years. I had the experience, then, of listening to the National Anthem and feeling a parasite slither in my left foot. It’s helpful to know that parasites can reside anywhere in the body, and that having parasites and other implants inserted into the body/consciousness is another part of SRA/MK. Movies, particular words, songs, images etc are all used as “triggers” for victims to switch them into their slave state, and from what I’ve experienced, I believe parasites are a major component of this. 

I experienced many restless nights of demonic activity, and began to get a grasp on what specifically was attacking me in each instance. I’d explained in my other article how my spleen was a focal point of fear energy and psychic attack, and this continued to some degree even after the panic attacks died down. One night I woke up feeling great pain and dark energy in my spleen and tapped into the energy of the demon and saw it was a reddish color and was on top of me. Another night I woke up hearing what felt like Satan’s voice or a voice of a primary handler screaming at me through my spleen. There was another night when I felt gripped by Satanic energy and without intending to, threw up Satanic finger/hand symbols while lying in bed, almost in a state of paralysis. In each of these instances, I felt minimal fear because calling on Jesus banishes the energy instantly. I would get up to do a coffee enema and clear the energy physically, and nurture myself through the process.

Other bizarre things I experienced were strange noises in my space, a period of my shower rod falling incessantly, seeing things skittering across the floor out of the corner of my eye, and seeing demonic faces appear in parts of the wall or floor. A roach would appear on some of the nights I was fasting, a physical indication of the darkness I was purging, and one night I found one nibbling at photos of me as a child. I also experienced a phase of seeing and feeling etheric spiders, some gigantic. Spiders are one of many creatures used to create terror for victims. What has helped me navigate these nightmarish moments is knowing how much demonic energy is invoked, along with the use of drugs, during this kind of abuse. A lot of surrender is necessary because I’m detoxing from so much that I don’t have a full conscious grasp of yet, so much that is not discussed in the mainstream, so much that is an assault to a child on all levels. 

I have had very vivid dreams and visions of SRA abusers either transmitting information to me or trying to control me, one of which came through as a giant reptile eye. Interestingly, I was shown the eye closing a few weeks after it initially appeared, indicating that that energy was dying off in my being. It was profound being able to see this visually, while also feeling the die-off physically. As we become attuned to our intuitive awareness, we can find the process of releasing this energy to actually be fascinating and multidimensional. We have so much inherent wisdom if we simply believe in ourselves, trust the Divine, and allow the flow of release and liberation.

As I mentioned, parasites have been a major part of this experience, and are sometimes associated with flashbacks that come up regarding specific instances of abuse. And I feel that connected to the parasites have been weird physical symptoms, like twitching in my face. Expanding to accept and not be fearful of out-of-the ordinary symptoms has been so important. Asking and trusting my body, and knowing it’s all part of the purging process has been a way of developing deeper intimacy with myself. 

I also have found that the pain and siphoning from the parasites has mimicked the torture of the abusers and has amped up since I uncovered the abuse, kicking up issues around being deprived of food and sleep, and feelings reminiscent of being raped/tormented with electroshock. Getting back to basics with a lot of gentleness with myself, moving slowly and allowing for rest, and deepening into self-compassion have been so helpful, and my sleep and appetite are getting back to normal now. 

Through it all, JESUS. And staying, as much as possible, out of fear, guilt, and shame. Knowing that it is completely normal to be carrying demonic energy after SRA is so important. I’d recommend the Svali Speaks blog for a deep dive into this component. Without fail, Jesus has decimated these demons each and every time. Every day, I feel more and more free, and these detox symptoms have decreased significantly. I feel the light of Jesus with me continuously now, and I ultimately feel thankful for this experience because of how it’s brought me back to him. 

If you’re experiencing anything along these lines, what I’d recommend is LOOKING at and SEEING it clearly— whatever darkness is bubbling up. Darkness likes to stay hidden and certainly thrives in a mind-controlled, dissociated victim. Looking at what’s arising head-on, with a sense of inner calm and empowerment, you take away its potency. A parasite cleanse is crucial, paired with coffee enemas, and hourly prayer to Jesus/fierce prayer any time you feel darkness is imperative. Liana Shanti’s Narcissistic Abuse Healing program, free Calming Meditation and Womb Healing, as well as her shamanic journeys in Lifepath have been key tools for me in breaking free.

Let Jesus support you in releasing any sense of unworthiness of his love, any sense that you’re too damaged or “bad” to be helped. That’s only what the controllers want you to think, and in the brilliance of his light, they are nothing.

Simple, healthy practices of daily walks/sunshine, green juices, organic meals, avoiding drugs and alcohol, connecting with trusted people for support, uplifting music, and exploring your creativity will keep you grounded through the intensity. And I’ve found it really important to provide lightness for my inner children when going through intense periods of detox. Giving myself hugs, finding moments of humor and silliness, looking at cute pictures/animal videos/anything with glitter helps a great deal with providing a safe space for them, along with the more fierce elements of protection (no contact with abusive family/exes, maintaining healthy habits). 

If there’s anything else I can share about my journey that could be helpful for you, please let me know! 

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